on moving out

recently i moved out of my childhood home halfway across the country. and its been the best decision i've made so far. chemnitz gives me all the happiness i never thought existed. i think i've learned more in the past two months than i have ever before, about myself and about other people and about "being an adult" and that no matter how perfect other peoples lifes seem they never really are.

i keep thinking that all the things i like at the moment and my opinions and interests are just a phase because i've experienced how easily i can change my mind. but the more i am away from everything i used to know the more i notice that the me i am right now will always be a part of the me i will become and therefore i shouldn't deny it but stand up for myself more. in this completely different environment with all new people and everything new i still go back to all the stuff i liked in stuttgart too. the first few weeks here i tried hard to adjust to peoples lifes here and i thought "i was over being an emo stan on twitter, going to every concert somewhat near me, locking myself into a room listening to music for hours, etc...." until i went to a concert and realised what bullshit that was and how happy it made me to be doing the stuff i knew made me happy but maybe wasnt what the people around me were doing. so now i am back to being true to myself and doing whatever the fuck i want no matter what anyone else says or what would be responsible or smart i will do what makes me feel the best.

side note though: it wasnt all negative to try to adjust to other peoples lifes and habits. i got to see into their everyday life and things that make other people happy that i might never think of trying and it was very nice to experience new things and i'm in no way saying never do new things or anything like that. try new things but stay true to old things that have proofed to make you happy.

sending lots of love to anyone reading this, see ya next time, mika xx